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I’m 41.

I just discovered that after the 4th IVF cycle I am finally pregnant.

I am crying happy tears, I can’t believe we actually made it.

I remember in my early 30s how ashamed I was to actually do egg freezing.
It was as if it was some sort of crime. Or an event people would unconsciously judge me for it.

I hated the thought of doing it.

Yes, I didn’t want to admit that I didn’t find a partner and that was the only choice I had.

It took me 4 years to face my fears.

The guilt that I felt that maybe I was too focused on my career and I didn’t allow myself to date more. I was living in New York at the time, so I felt I didn’t have time for that.

But then I didn’t want to risk not having the chance to become a mum and, thanks to therapy, at age 34 I did it.

Amongst the medical procedure… I felt relieved. Or unblocked. I didn’t self doubt anymore.

There’s nothing more I needed to think about. A weight lifted off my shoulders.

Something I couldn’t quite explain. I had hope.

I met my current partner at age 39.

And thanks to my eggs frozen when I was 34, I am now PREGNANT (only 2 eggs became embryos and one survived, that is the baby I carry now).

I don’t have words to describe how happy I am. And the shame I felt at the time about doing egg freezing is now a blessing for the life I am bringing into the world.

You deserve to be happy too. 🤍